Beartooth frontman Caleb Shomo has detailed the 'intense' conversation he had with his wife after deciding to come out as gay, describing it as a 'really difficult' moment in his life.
In a new episode of the Disrespectfully podcast hosted by former Vanderpump Rules stars Katie Maloney and Dayna Kathan, the 33-year-old rock musician explained that he was 'terrified' when he came out to his wife of 14 years, Fleur.
'I was just bawling my f**king eyes out, trying so hard to verbalise,' Shomo said. 'And I really struggle to verbalise things, and this is obviously such an intense thing, and I'm feeling so nervous and so scared in the situation that it was really, really difficult to verbalise, and I didn't verbalise it very well.'
Shomo, who had kept his sexuality 'at bay' for a long time, recounted telling Fleur that 'the way that like I feel about girls, I feel about guys'. He recalled saying: 'There's something there that I've been running from for a long f**king time. And I don't think I want to run anymore. And yeah, then after that, the f**king hinges got ripped out.'
The musician said that coming out allowed him to 'stop hating myself so much,' and he 'immediately' sought therapy to address his 'severe ADHD'. He explained that maintaining a daily routine of therapy, exercise, healthy eating, sunshine, good sleep, and creativity helped him better come to terms with his sexuality.
'I understand after a lot of life that if I'm not doing very certain things in my daily routine to keep that at bay, it's easy for me to kind of like spiral out and go back into a hole and then just bury everything back down,' he shared. 'So I was like, I'm gonna take this really f**king seriously.'
Shomo said his 'ultimate goal' in life now is to love himself and help others reach that same point, though he acknowledged having a 'long f**king road' ahead to 'forgive himself.' He added: 'I feel like I'm on the path. I'm letting this happen. I'm not trying to rush anything. I'm not trying to force anything. It's just one step at a time.'
The musician came out as gay in an Instagram statement on May 23, telling fans he had been 'unpacking and reckoning' with his sexuality 'for quite some time now.' He said that after 'spent a decade burying feelings with alcohol,' he made a vow to stop suppressing his emotions and give himself grace to 'experience self love.'
Fleur, who married Caleb in 2012, wrote in her own Instagram post that supporting her husband 'while losing everything has been incredibly hard to figure out.' She also noted that their 14-year marriage was 'wonderful and full of so much fun, adventure and love.' She added: 'I already miss it and my husband more than anything. Our story was a good one. And now it's done.'
The couple does not have any children together. This article originally appeared in Page Six and was reproduced with permission.
