Meg, 35, spent years fantasising about sex with women while married to a man. With two children, she felt disconnected from her body during sex, often relying on lesbian porn to orgasm. 'Sex felt like something to get through,' she says. After meeting Jess on Tinder, her world changed.
A First Kiss That Buckled Knees
Jess's Tinder profile read: 'Smilier in real life, only in the area for three weeks.' Their first kiss made Meg's knees buckle, earning her the nickname 'Bambi.' Meg rushed home and masturbated while thinking about Jess, then immediately told her. 'I'd never kissed a woman before and had blown up my whole life to come out,' Meg explains.
Learning to Be Present
For six months, Meg worked on getting out of her head and into her body. She had to learn to orgasm without the internal screen she relied on. Jess was patient, once noticing Meg's mind drifting and saying, 'Stick with it.' Meg came immediately. 'Jess can read me from the inside out,' Meg says.
Jess's Role as a Butch Top
Jess, 35, identifies as a butch top and finds pleasure in Meg's pleasure. 'It's my job to take care of Meg in every way: practically, emotionally and sexually,' Jess says. She takes out the bins, gives reassurance, and makes Meg come. 'My pleasure comes from giving Meg pleasure,' she adds. Meg admits handing over control is freeing, though she sometimes struggles to accept being cared for.
Building a Life Together
The couple recently moved in together. Meg cried during sex one night, worrying if they'd still have mind-blowing mornings with real-life pressures. Jess helps her learn to relax—in bed and in life. Meg's kids have noticed: one rolled her eyes and said, 'Ugh! All you guys do is talk and kiss.' Meg is excited to take Jess for granted and do life together, even the mundane things.
A Liberating Desire
Jess grew up in a small fishing town and questioned her attractiveness as a butch woman. But Meg's open desire liberates her. 'She tells me how much she fancies me and makes me feel so entirely loved,' Jess says. 'It's the best relationship I've ever had—and I hope it's the last.'
